laraF's nest

As much as I'd like to clean through things so I could finally see some order and structure on this blog, it's one helluva job when you're depressed, unmotivated and you're whole life philosophy degraded into one word and one sentence: whatever and I don't care.

But I'm somehow here again. This year I'm not even trying to make resolutions and such. But I'll make one promise to myself and The Void: I'll try. To put some time and effort into things that are above mere survival. To not just read or sleep or lay down and stare, but to at least post my useless musings, if I have nothing else. I was even thinking about opening an Insta account to post some pics (without the real name and face, obviously) to just feel like I'm doing something. Even if it's just vibing. Probably I won't ever do it, but entertaining the thought sometimes is kind of okay.

A list is required if I want to move forward and I'm putting it here becuase my mind is a mess and I couldn't find a calendar suitable for outlining things in a way that my brain could work with.
So,

• Arranging my Storygraph profile --- I have a notebook dating back to maybe, 2008? Or something? (I need to find it in this mess I live in, and that thought already exhausts me...) I want to upload all the books I read to somewhere, which is not infested by Jeff Bezos and/or Elon Musk. I had a falling out with Goodreads when they vanished the option of adding books manually (Hungarian here and wow, SURPRISE, not any online English catalogue has my obscure language's books, so, I heavily depended on that feature), and I haven't even checked the site in months. Coincidentally that was the time (funny, how dumb I can be sometimes) when I realized that Goodreads doesn't just have a really good relationship with Amazon, it's basically a friendly looking trap to lure you into Jeff's orbit. And now I'm traumatized for life, actually, but that's besides the point, The point is, that Storygraph is a pretty cool looking, independent alternative to follow your reading shenanigans (I'm reduced yet again to AO3 but whatever). I feel like the most potent problem will be accurately combing through the endless depths of my want to read shelf (a whopping 811 title monster) which I synced up to Storygraph yeah, buuuut... The Syncing Process was not... a 100% accurate, so to say, and looking through all that info needs time. For time to have I'd need to quit my job. (Which I love, but like, if I'd have the option to at least reduce my hours that'd be preferable. Or you know, just living off a fortune freely from somewhere, say from the mountains of Spain without any pressing responsibilities? Even better.)

I mean, look at that stat. I do not speak Polish nor German. Honestly, what the fuck. Something definitely went awry there.
 


 

• Updating my playlists. I wanted to have cute little widgets on this site, that are, you know, telling more about me than any words could. Make this place feel like home through and through. My playlists are talking loud and clear about the sad, sad soul I am. But I couldn't find a good enough option some months ago (the last time I managed to put in any effort to edit this blog lol). But I'd still love to do this. A whole other round of searching for hours upon hours, probably. Again with the time... Maybe if I wouldn't sleep through half of my off-days, that'd help. Yeah.
• I not as much as decided, but was kinda forced into the task of looking for hungarian subtitles to Wang Yibo's latest series: Being A Hero. And if I can't find any, naturally I should make some. I'll... may as well look into it, like, right now? Maybe someone already trasnlated it and I won't have to...? Fat chances to that happening. *internal sigh* Like, I love translating. I love doing it. It's just that I'm in a phase. A long, terrible phase of being pretty much nothin, doing nothin and... Enough of that, alright. Moving on.
• Translating fics. Enough said. Also, I will, for a friend of mine. To English. And I look forward to it, so there's that, at least? Gotta familiarize myself with the material tho, because I'm not in the fandom, but it's just video watching and research. I'm mighty good at that. I'll share links probably, if I'll have permission.
• Post my ALREADY TRANSLATED GIFT-FIC (Monda és Ember közt) to Merengő. Seriously. Gah.
• Write the extremely gay gay gay BTS fic that I have in my sad list of unfinished ideas. It's very much a summer thing, so it'd be great to post it, I dunno, to their 10th anniversary. In June. Pride Month-fitting, really, so. Celebrate and all that. (Hahahahaha, post it, right. You have to write it for that to happen, don't you, dummy? Hahaha)
• Write the advent Tom/Harry fic. Really, now, maybe if I'll look into it right in January I'll be actually ready with it for Christmas...? Last time I checked in I made a TON of progress with outlining, really, I did. I was proud... I'm still proud. (Ridiculous.)
• Finish editing the Intro page of my blog. I have all these intro panels and still nothing behind them. Sad. [The Dragon Shrine is probably the easiest, and I've had the coding page for it open for ages but damn. Maybe Imma do it in this milennia...?]

Annnnd, I think that's enough for now. Stop the anxiety a little with not building unrealistic expectations for yourself. Haha, right.
I love making lists, so this is probably gonna be a habit here. If I can stick to sticking my head above the water long enough, that is.

In the next post, I'm bringing along the fifth gift from that long-looong time gone Drarry fest, which I'm still terribly fond of.



P.S.: Yeah, no one's made a hun sub for that series and it's DUCKING 32 EPISODES LONG. Rip me, like seriously. For Yibo, I'll do it anyway. But Imma curse the whole time.

P.P.S.: I should really move to Spain, don't you think? I miss the sunshine.